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Originally posted by station82o
I suppose that'd be my take on it - the mutual deal and I wouldn't want to come off as pompous as well. The thing is, when you've been a loner for most of your childhood and only really made 'good good' friends in high school, you tend to have a lot of reservations about many things and especially regarding people. I have alot of "aqquaintences" (coworkers and others I've met in my daily life) whom I am used to seeing on a regular basis, but very few close friends.
Compared to high school when I was part of an extremely large large circle of friends, my situation seems kinda sparse thesedays, but I don't mind really, I get nostalgic occasionally but never depressed over that fact. Life is a lot more complicated and confusing thesedays and I think that it wouldn't help me to have a large group of friends to "hang around with" (not likely I'd have the time anyway) - just a few select friends who've been through the battlefield with me.
Being away from such a large group is somewhat good in the sense that you get to know yourself better I suppose, I mean at the end of the day when work is done, school is done or whatever has passed all you have is yourself to deal with. I suppose that I have a Henry Rollins-ish view point towards being alone or whatnot - but it helps to view the world in that light, and to become comfortable with being alone.