Ramon threatened to beat me up so despite being sick I trekked out for a few hours of walking around in 90 degree heat.
Also, Mezz, thanks for that cigarette. It made me realize that I don't actually like smoking anymore.
When I stopped 3 weeks ago, I was getting tired of it and wanted a break. When you gave me that cigarette, I had no urge for it but just wanted to see if it set off the OMG NEED NICOTINE URGE, and it did nothing for me. I don't regret it because shit, it made me contemplate whether or not I even want to go back to sober smoking when I get back to Maryland. I haven't had an urge for a cigarette in weeks and haven't had an urge after you gave me one.
What an awesome feeling. I feel like I'm free from its dirty grip.

