Adding to my stuff here. I do this thing where every few years I write an albums worth of material for my fantasy music career. So as I continue to add to this fantasy album, I'll keep putting the stuff into a single post. These are silly pop songs, but they actually have some emotional baggage of mine in them and reflect some actual things from the past few years.
The first one, Empty Parking Lots at 4a.m., is about me and my girlfriend, whom I was with for 3 1/2 years before she had to leave the country. We we very close, but every 8 or 9 months we'd have these really quiet moments and she'd ask me what our plans were together, and I couldn't ever answer her.
The second one, Same Sky, is about two girls. The first verse is about a pen pal I used to have in Shenzhen, China. We'd write pretty often, but then there was a shake up at the magazine she worked at as the government started to crack down on corruption in companies. This was around the same time that a U.S. plane crashed on Hainan Island, and carried over through to the Afghanistan and Iraq conflicts. During this period, there were several times when I was pretty aware that she wasn't the one emailing me, that someone else was using her account, and they were asking very pointed questions and the "voice" in the messages was very strange and devoid of what I was used to with her.
The second verse goes back to my girlfriend, who after living in the U.S. for 13 years, either waited too long to renew her visa or just was flat out not allowed to, so she had to leave the U.S. and go back to Cyprus.
**edit** Just did a third one called Take Me Home Now. It's more situational. I used to get dragged to parties by my girlfriend a lot, thrown by people I didn't know for people I didn't know. I've got a bit of a social anxiety complex (and she did too, but not as bad and her way of dealing with it was to force herself to do these things) and parties with strangers really freak me out. My only consolation was that she was there with me and could make me feel comfortable from fifty feet away through twenty-five people, just by looking my way and smiling.
Empty Parking Lots at 4a.m.
The lights of the city diffuse in the a.m. dew
The car moves in slow motion, the radio whispering a long ago tune
The streets are all empty, the city is sleeping
Even the ghosts have all gone to bed
You pull into an empty parking lot
And stop ‘neath the skyline towering overhead
We’re still stealing glances, three years in a lifetime
Together, but what lies ahead?
You ask, “What are our chances?” and I stare
In the gloaming silent and sadly
The clock on the dash reads 4a.m.
Overhead a plane full of strangers flies, taking them all
Where their destinations lie, and the airplane so high
Is nearly silent in the black of the early morning sky
From there we walk down a boulevard downtown row
Of Townhomes where few amber lights shine through
Windows of other people’s lives
Back at your place, you’re glowing
In your bedroom, July Christmas lights of blue
And we lay without talking, but I’m holding you tightly
Afraid to let go too soon
Same Sky
You are a friend whom I’ve never met
In a place I’ve longed to get
Imagined voices always unheard
Lives exchanged in the written word
The code we spoke in is still haunting me
Cautious phrases should prying eyes see
Last Lunar New Year I said ‘hello’
You replied in brief, said later details would follow
Well later hasn’t come and I still don’t know
…What happened to you
Did they root you out? Did they let you go?
What if you didn’t make it?
What if you didn’t make it?
Across the great divide
Our world is split twenty thousand miles wide
Four seas between you and I
But every day and night
We live and breathe beneath
The same sky
You are the love I used to know
Now in a place I cannot go
All those hours we used to share
The conversations of a lifetime
…And the bedside theater
Now paired down to quips in text
And I’m always left waiting for the next
It was an accident
You let your papers slip
And now I’m left here hanging
Bereft and inutile
Why couldn’t we just make it?
Why couldn’t we just make it?
Across the great divide
Our world is split ten thousand miles wide
Two seas between you and I
But every day and night
I cry beneath
The same sky
Take Me Home Now
Take me home now
I’ve had my fill
Of drinks and hors d’oeuvres
That keep being shilled
Take me home now
I don’t know these people
And forced conversation
Is taking its toll
I smile and make small talk
With strangers who I’ll have to re-introduce
Myself to again in less than a year
I get myself up for this
But every single time
I swear I feel the same fear
Take me home now
It’s too crowded here
And I’m only here
Because you’re here
Take me home now
Whatever you ask, you know I can’t say no
We’ve put in our face-time
So I think it’s finally time that we can go
You leave me alone
And I stand by the bar
All conspicuous and awkward and weird
I get myself up for this
But every single time
I swear I feel the same fear
Take me home now
Our eyes meet across the crowded room
And every time I look into yours
I smile for real and relax and want to go home with you soon
Take me home now
You know I’ve really tried my best
Our obligation is filled and all that is left
Is that you and I get out of this place
If You’re All That’s Left I’ll Be All Right
Two hearts in far off places and never the twain shall meet
Two ships in the night lost on the same black sea
Two lovers entwined was just a fool’s dream
A stitch not in time to save a ripped seam
Too much too soon or too little too late
When the lust turns to love and the love turns to hate
If you’re all that’s left I’ll be all right
If we stumble upon one another like thieves in the night
Amid concrete and clay and general decay
How dearly we would love to kick with the fray
We paint on smiles and hang with the fey
But not a day goes by that’s not a dog-end day
Too little too late or too much too soon
When the sun goes down and up comes the moon
If you’re all that’s left I’ll be all right
Should we stumble upon each other like thieves in the night
First Rain of Summer
The summer burns two months on
No reprieve from the heat seems near
The days seem much too long
Especially without you here
Out of nowhere comes the clouds today
A draize settles in and the day turns gray
A few sparse drops turn into a drizzle
And the city begins to hiss and to sizzle
Most of these days start the same
A dream of things I’d rather forget
The sun comes up and hangs in place
And warms over my regret
Today buildings steam and slick are the streets
And the baked ground and grass wet smell so sweet
The drizzle picks up and soon is a storm
And the first rain of summer washes over us all
You said one year, maybe a little more
But things got screwed up for you
And one year maybe more
Soon turned into never
The dust is beat down and soon drowned in puddles
The cars are confused, the drivers’ minds muddled
Headlights shine at the peak of the afternoon
And I wonder if it’s raining where you are too
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