Originally Posted by
Satsuki
I kinda see it like this. I know that I'd be a great mother, and my husband would be a great father. I think kids are pretty rad as a whole (in small doses.) But there's a few things that really have put the stopper on me having kids.
First and foremost, I've wanted to make a contribution to society since I was young. I mean this in an creative sense, or possibly academic sense, I want to add to the knowledge and culture of the world. If I had a child, they would be first and foremost on my responsibilities, and my ability to pursue learning and knowledge (in the sense of academics) would be put on hold. I'd have to choose between the two, and I wouldn't do that to a child. I would have an enormous amount of resentment if I did, and that is NOT FAIR to burden someone else with that when I know full well that I have the control in the situation. Parents who blame their children for their shortcomings are terrible, evil people - and I will not willingly be part of that.
Second, my health and stamina are garbage. I worry about the physicality of having a child, and I'm not 100% sure I would survive it, or be able to bounce back from pregnancy easily.
Thirdly, from a philosophical standpoint, I have asked myself the question that if I were to somehow get pregnant, could I deal with my child having something like Downs' Syndrome? Or an imperfect body (born missing a limb, things like that?) What about if they had severe OCD or schizophrenia, or another life altering mental illness that runs so heavily in my family? I can't even deal with the first example, let alone the others. Once again, it is unfair of me to burden a child with my preconceived notions of what I feel I am entitled to.
So, these are my reasons for not having children. I am happy to hear about my friend's children, I don't mind the plethora of baby pictures that flood my facebook wall, and I do feel for my parents who so desperately want grandkids. But, this is my life, this is my body, this is my future - and I come first. I won't pretend otherwise.
I do understand where parents are coming from when they say that I am missing out. This is true, just as they are missing out but not pursuing higher education or striving for their dream careers. But a choice has to be made.
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