Is your life now as you thought it would be when you were younger

[napalm]

I have a book that I wrote when I was like 4 or 5 called "Matt the elf" about an elf named Matt who worked for Santa to make videogames for the children of the world. He ended up saving Christmas (which I haven't done), but the point is, yeah, I have always wanted to do what I do. I'll have to scan this and post it for all to see. It is pretty shitty/hilarious.

Edit: Upon looking at my post I now realize the original question was about my silly age on the forums. I will now fix it so it shows my real age. I'm not 11.

Oh man I wrote one of those stories when I was in liek 1st grade. I think it was called 'Garret and the Bear' or something like that. I always have had an interest in writing, but oh man is that a shitty ass story. My mom has kept what my dad calls 'The Museum of Everything I've Ever Touched', so it'd probably take a few days if I wanted to find it again.

[Rhydant]

...what?

[Fe 26]

Instead I'm still down here in California, wasting away in my third year of community college trying to figure out a budget so I dont have to get another job/sell my games. The slow, downward spiral.

Real life is fucking depressing.

Me and you both. They were selling shirts for my school that said "NE, best 3 or 4 years of my life." I paid for one but never got it. I never did go talk to them because I couldn't be bothered to go the BSU on the other side of campus to chat with them about it. (I'm dumb blah blah blah, yeah, I know)

To answer the threads question, no, I'm not where I thought I would be. In some ways it is good that I am not. When I was in middle school I wanted to make video games. Now that I'm older and know that the people who make the games, have next to no power over the concept of the game, I'm glad I didn't peruse it for a career.

But on the other hand I never knew that my life would become so complicated. So many of the people I love have been hurt very badly by other people. People I care about have developed "problems" that I can't change or help. All I can do is try to be their for them when they need me. My best friend in highschool has two kids already, and he is a year younger than me.

The state that I live in, the one that my dad and his dad before him grew up in, is slowly dying and degrading. Not only is this sad to watch but it limits me and the people I care about a great deal. My parents no longer make what they used to because the local economy is so bad, and with other burdens put on them by other things, this limits everyone in our family, making things more complicated and difficult.

Walls keep popping up in my life. 5 or even 10 years ago I had no idea that real life could be this complicated, and life could get so painful for so many people.

[kedawa]

Quick answer: No.
Long and boring answer:

I never really had any preconception of what my life would be.
I assumed I would end up dead or in jail, but I've managed to stay out of trouble.

Having good grades and getting some scholarships led me down the academic path, but that didn't work out so well.
University/college fucked me over twice, once by canceling my physics program, and again by changing my electronics engineering program into shitty telecom, so I'm pretty much through with post-secondary education.
At least I dropped out with honours, though.

It didn't help that my dad died while I was at university, and my mom died after my first year at college.
I was really on edge the whole time, and all of the bureaucratic fuck-ups I had to put up with at school just put me over the edge.
I could have switched programs and started over, but I have a very low bullshit tolerance.

I've never had any interest in relationships or having children, so on that front, everything is just as I had expected.

Right now I'm just pissing away my inheritance and dreading the wage-slave life that awaits me once it's all gone.

The only thing I'm really interested in at the moment is getting back into shape and rocking the kung-fu.

[Fe 26]

D= sorry to hear about your folks. I don't know what I'd do if my folks, or even my grandmother died. They support me so much in school, and I don't mean money wise. They cut me a lot of slack and keep helping me even though I've fucked up 4 or 5 times now.

I have a great deal of respect for my dad for getting through medical school even though his dad died in the middle of it.

[kedawa]

Thanks, IP.
It was pretty rough, but I have three older siblings and my friends to support me.
I don't want to give the impression that my life is fucked because of what happened, because my parents were really the unfortunate ones.
My dad died only a year or so before he would have retired, and my mom was starting to really enjoy life when she died.
I only went to university to make my parents happy and get out of their hair, and I only went to college to get a good co-op job to pay off my debt from university (college is way cheaper than university here).
Now I have no parents and no debt, so I have no desire to put myself through school again.
The funny thing is, as empty and meaningless as my life is, I really don't want anything more.
Maybe I'm a Buddhist at heart.

[Brisco Bold]

Is your life now as you thought it would be when you were younger?

No. We'll see in a few years if things change.

[Drewbacca]

i'm exactly where I thought I'd be.

[Chemist]

I think i am about where i always thought i would be, school is alot harder then i imagined it though.. thats a downside. I thought i would have my own car by 20.. but another miss, and i envisioned myself in better shape, hahahahaha... I think its all working out.. I still have like 2 years left of University so i best not fail.

[arjue]

I thought by now I'd be studying music and in a kick ass band, while in reality I'm making a movie with a friend (which could actually make me some decent money) and am still writing music at home, So while its different, I wouldn't say its worse.

Job wise, no, I didn't think I'd be here, but we'll see what happens with this movie in a year or so.